Crystal, I want to commend you for having the courage to reach out and for allowing me to share with others. I can guarantee you the thoughts I have regarding this will not be intended to "beat you up." Out of the thousand of hits our website gets on a monthly basis, at least 90 percent of the viewers secretly feel like you do, so you are DEFINITELY not alone.
Our past serves a purpose in our lives. The funny thing is we ALL have one. Some of us aren't proud of the choices we have made while others embrace their past as a part of their life which has shaped them into the new person they have and are becoming. Of course there are consequences to any decision we ALL make, but the key is to make better purpose-driven decisions that warrant a healthy, prosperous harvest.
When it comes to losing one's virginity particularly at the expense of not being married and with someone whom you would like to forget, it can haunt you IF you let it. You need to face the fact that you CANNOT erase the moment you lost your virginity, but you CAN begin to create new moments. Crystal, it is EXTREMELY important for you to make peace with your past so that regret doesn't disturb your future.
Sounds like this guy you are dating is in love with the current, present Crystal and that's all that matters as you move forward. God knows you are not a virgin anymore, and He still has allowed you two to meet. Could this possibly be because God sees ALL the potential He has placed inside of you despite your past choices, and He knows this potential will bloom at the precise time. Your dating relationship encompasses celibacy and that too is to be commended, so celebrate that. Stop shining a "Jumbo Tron" light on the fact that you are not a virgin anymore, because this can easily distract you from this great guy whose right in front of you. Continue to keep your eyes fixed forward and on Jesus whose our example and the author and finisher of our faith (Hebrews 12:2).